The expression when life throws you lemons make lemonade; it is a constant reminder that life is ever changing. Every day that my son doesn't have a seizure is a blessing and when he does have a seizure I am constantly reminded to try to see the brighter side of the situation. It is gut wrenching to see my son's body betray him and to watch him lose complete control. I beg and pray that he will come back to us and when the seizure finally ends I am flooded with tons of emotions that are normally overwhelming and I try so hard to keep it together so that my son won't see my tears. As he gets older the seizures have become more violent and here lately it seems like the medication is not working. I read an article about a mother who used writing as a way to cope with her son's accident that left him with a traumatic brain injury. I cried all the way through the article and then I went back and read poems that I have written over the years and I see the transition in my work especially in regards to my son. Looking back, I can tell by my writing style when he had a seizure. My words are frantic or sloppy and very raw with emotion, but they speak volumes to what was going on in our life at that time. My son was diagnosed with epilepsy over 12 years ago and I will tell you time does not heal all things, however my writing has helped me heal and accept. Everyday is a blessing and I just have to continue to believe that one day the right medicine will control my son's seizures or that he will out grow them, until then I am going to creatively try to make something with those lemons and it probably won't be lemonade, maybe a nice pie that is so tart it makes me cry but beg for more.
Sharon loves to read mysteries, science fiction, and fantasy. She loves the fact that a book can take you anywhere if you let it.